Sociology exam TOMORROW.
I'm freaking out. A lot.
I either want an A or a C. That sounds weird, but if I get an A, I'll obviously be tres happy, and if I get a C I know I'll resit it. Decided that already.
But if I get a B? It seems a bit arrogant, for want of a better word. As if I'm being like, "Oh no, that grade's not good enough for me; I must get an A." But I'm really not, I just want to get an A so I can go to the uni I want to, not just any that'll accept me.
Not that you'll do that if you get Bs, I'm just saying I'm probably going to a uni that's hard to get into so I'll need good grades.. Not that Bs aren't good.. I'm digging myself into a hole here.
So yes, freaking out.
I keep reading stuff in my textbook and I'm like, "What the fuck is that?! We haven't learnt that!" And it's stressing me out. You put quite a lot of faith in teachers to teach you the right stuff, don't you? I guess I'll just have to trust them.
Been to the gym today (Y) I can never be bothered, but I did run a kilometre and a bit, and did 50 sit ups, so that's pretty good for the first session of the year, after the complete lack of excercise throughout the christmas holidays.. I've gotten veryyy unfit 
Talking of unfit, you know who IS fit? Ollie. Oh yes, I like him a little bit 
And I saw him today.. Went for a walk with him.. Was pretty late for french..
Slightly worried that I'm just being used, but to be honest, I don't want a relationship and he probably doesn't either, so I shouldn't be too bothered.
I just feel like a bit of a slag, you know? Like, he's a slag, but he knows he is and he's fine with it, but I'm really not used to it.
As my friend becki said, "Is he interested in the 3 letter word or the 4 letter word?" And I said, "Well neither to be honest; today he was interested in the 7 letter word: handjob."
But no, he really is interested in the 3 letter word, and not the 4 letter word. But to be honest, the 4 letter word doesn't really appeal to me either. Difference is, I'm slightly terrified of the 3 letter word. Quite worried about losing my V, if you get me.
But hey, we'll have to wait an see, eh?
I just asked Katie who she pulled at new years and she just said.. Well, here's the convo:
Me: "So did you pull at new years?"
Katie: "Well apparently I pulled Len, but I don't remember."
Me: "Oh coolll "
Katie: "I don't remember much, just kissing everyone when it was happy new year time, and Ollie (ugh - sorry) keeps going on about Len and something to go with his leg."
Me: "Whatt? Who's leg? That made no sense lol."
Katie: "Len's leg."
Me: "Ohh, I understand. I was confused why you said ugh - sorry, but I get it: You said sorry because you said ugh. Lol."
Katie: "Yeah that's what the sorry was for.."
Me: "?"
Katie: "For the ugh."
Me: "Oh okay (Y) So thenn.."
But I think that the "Yeah that's what the sorry was for" line was sarcastic and really she was saying sorry because she pulled Ollie. Not that I'd be bothered; they're both single and, let's face it, we know what Ollie's like.
Right. Seeing as I'm absolutely terrified about my exam, I'm going to do some more revision.
I'll write 2mo to say how it went :S If I'm not too busy revising psychology, obviously... 
Ciao xxx
